02/25/08

The intent for tonight’s journey was to answer any question that I have.

As I enter, I find myself standing on my familiar path my staff slung over my back. The ground is very muddy as I walk the mud squishes between my toes. The trail is not more difficult to walk on or even slippery, just very muddy. Approaching the small clearing I feel the cool spray from the waterfall and realize the rains must have been very heavy. The air contains the scent of rebirth and renewal that always seems to follow a cleansing rainstorm. After pausing for a moment to take in the refreshingly beautiful aura. I think to myself how happy I am, how happy I am to be here this night. Walking over to my entry pool, I jump in, the water feels cool, welcome and somehow more inviting that I remember. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down. Tonight the crystals that line the walls of the pool fluoresce, twinkling and shimmering, as if they are greeting me, beckoning me on. Without much hesitation I continue headfirst through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

Surfacing, I lay back floating taking in the damp fragrance of the cave noticing how different it is from the waterfall. Swimming over to the side I pull myself out and slowly turn around, thinking the torches seem brighter tonight… Walking out of the cavern, I proceed over to Wascar. We exchange our customary greetings and I give him a large folded linen. Tonight Wascar says the things I will see are sacred to me and are about an element of my current path and what the near future holds. Wascar tells me that there are once again four chambers for me to visit; he says the first chamber contains the story of the answer to my questions current story. As soon as he finishes speaking a wooden plank door appears in front of us.

Reaching for the knob, I open the door and as I do millions of Monarch butterflies come flying out swirling around me circling and spiraling upward. When the cloud of butterflies dissipates enough, the scenery is breathtaking. It’s a wondrous gently rolling meadow, with wild flowers growing everywhere. In the far distance are some small hills that the wild flowers cover as well. Standing here I feel loved and in love. The colors are vibrant reds, yellows, oranges, purples, blues and many shades of green. The sky is so very clear and such a deep shade of blue. I feel that this is the place of a new beginning on that is very near to manifesting in my life. In the distance on my left side there is a grove of quaking aspen trees with a door standing among them. Thinking about this door my scene fades.

I am now standing in a very small, sparsely decorated one-room cabin this room is cold (everything is tinted shades of blue and gray), covered in thick layers of dust, and cobwebs are over all of the contents of the room. A lady in a dark color, hooded shawl appears with her back to me she pauses and then hesitantly leaves the cabin locking the door. As she paused I felt a sense of fear, and sadness almost as if she were leaving a child or her childhood in this place. She was definitely ready for the next phase of life, and this new beginning was in some ways scary too. This place had given her sanctuary and comfort but was no longer needed…
Immediately after the door lock clanked shut, I was standing in another room with a fire pit in the center. A fire was burning, the room warm, comfortable, peaceful and happy. I was standing there holding a leather bound book. The books title was embossed and using my peripheral vision I could tell that it read “Our Past Mistakes, Pain, Fear and Bad Choices.” Reaching forward I place the book in the fire. The flames immediately grow, crackling and popping, the book quickly burns as the glowing embers rise they turn into Monarch butterflies that swirl out of the top of the room.

When the flames die down and the last butterfly leaves, the scene changes back to a rolling meadow similar to the first with hills off into the distance, wild flowers everywhere and this time there’s a small two story yellow house just ahead of me. This place is full of joy, happiness and LOVE. Walking slowly through the flowers I approach the house, it has a porch wrapping around the front and right side. A large path takes off from the front porch heading into the hills where the path has many forks, twists and turns. It reminds me of a majestic oak tree, strong, resilient, patient, compassionate and giving.

Where ever and whom ever you may be my angel, I want you to know that this journey means so much to me, it contains part of your path as well as some of our shared path. I look forward to all the forks, twists and turns of life especially since I know that from now on our path is lined with wild flowers and butterflies….

02/11/08

I am on my familiar path my staff slung over my back, walking along until I reach the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in the water felt cool and welcome. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

Pulling myself out on the other side I walk out of the cavern and over to Wascar. We exchange our customary greetings and I give him some flat bread that’s wrapped in a red cloth. He tells me that there are once again four chambers for me to visit. The first chamber contains the story of what we believed. As I enter this chamber It’s dark and raining very hard, the wind is howling and the only thing in sight is a very young boy sitting all alone, drenched on a tree stump, with lightning striking all around and thunder roaring. I believed I was all alone and that in the end I would be left all alone…

In the second chamber, there is a table with a bonsai tree sitting on it, the tree is sick and extremely root bound, I remove the tree from its container and examine the mess of tangled and dying roots. While I’m looking at the root ball, Jaguar approaches and immediately I am inside the root ball trapped with no way out. Now Jaguar says that I must dissolve the mess. I freeze, hesitating; finally Jaguar says, “blow”. As soon as I blow the root ball disappears bursting into a ball of brilliant white light that should have hurt my eyes, but didn’t. This room represented getting rid of what I believed.

In the third chamber, the bonsai was there; I picked it up and planted the trunk in the ground. Immediately it turned into a majestic oak. The oak was now growing in the same location where the stump was earlier. Now this scene was beautiful, birds, flowers, warmth and an overwhelming sense of love.

In the last chamber, I had the bonsai in my hands and walked over to a fire place and tossed it in, as it caught fire it sparked, crackled and popped new life into the room and as the sparks died down a sepia toned portrait appeared. The people in the picture were mylong awaited angel, my children, their families and me. The sense of contentment and love was something that caught me off guard and choked me up. I did not expect this…

01/10/08

I’m walking slowly on my familiar path my staff slung over my back. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in the water felt cool and welcome. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

Pulling myself out on the other side I walk out of the cavern and over to Wascar. We exchange our customary greetings and then I continue on to the first of four chambers. The first chamber was dark and a shell was on a pedestal in one corner of the room. The pedestal was lit by a spot light from directly above, the intensity of the light made the shell glow. A voice spoke saying to honor my good health by using my gifts specifically that of running and that longevity beyond my expectations will remain.

In the next chamber there was a flurry of crazy action movies, so much activity that I couldn’t capture and specific details. I did sense that people I know were there, and that the activity was likely their life stories. Then in the third chamber, there was a fire pit and as I approached the fire I was told to honor my diversity.

In the last chamber, Was a paper crammed with writing and a quill pen, I walked over to the paper and began to read it. The paper was contract, which I signed and as soon as my signature was complete the contract burst into flames. Immediately I was back by Wascar, I said goodbye and returned.

12/06/07

I’m walking slowly on my familiar path, it’s very dry today and the ground is hard under my feet. The scent of guava and jasmine permeate the air. Today, as I have become accustomed to, my staff is slung over my back. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in Sach’amama swam up to me, coiling herself around me, I became on with her.

We swam down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side, and climbed/slithered out and over to Wascar. Noticing us he smiled and began to laugh, saying to me “looks like now you’ve really gone and done it.” His laughter continued, getting so hard that I could see he has several missing teeth, which I had never noticed before.

After his laughter settled, I coiled around him and he walked off and into a cavern. Once inside, he held up a long branch and I slithered up to the top. Eagle came once again and began circling, around and around, screeching over and over and over. Finally I could make out that she was saying, “see how easy this is, why don’t you just do it.” “You have all that you need.” As soon as she said this I found myself back on the path with the waterfall behind me… For me, I believe this represents a tenant of don’t focus just accept. Or From acceptance comes understanding…

11/29/07

I’m walking on my familiar path, Jaguar is once again by my right side. Today I have my staff slung over my back. My feet are slightly muddy the texture and coolness were welcome. The air again held the fragrance of renewal. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in the water felt much cooler than normal. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

I climb out of the pool on the other side and slowly walk out of the torch lit cavern to find Wascar in his usual place sitting by the fire, today it’s twilight out, that magical time between day and night for me… Wascar greets me, and motions for me to sit with him. As is our custom we sit in silence. While we are sitting sister hawk and brother lizard join us.

Not long after they arrive everything dissolves falling away except for our fire circle and the log we are sitting on. We are floating in space, surrounded by galaxies and stars. Some feel strangely familiar by sensation alone and others do not. Then Wascar spoke, saying, “continue expanding your vision,” “there is so much more to see.” Then we sat in silence again it was cold and quiet more silence that I can ever remember experiencing.

When Wascar spoke again he simply said, “see”… Instantly we were back to a place that looked similar to Wascar’s camp, however it was now day and early spring with new leaves budding and sprouting on the surrounding trees. Off to our left was a large tipi and Wascar told me to go inside. I got up and started to walk toward the tipi and heard a rustling coming from the aspen trees in back of the tipi. I stopped and saw a brilliantly white Grandmother Buffalo grazing in the grove. She raised her head and said that when I enter the tipi I should ask no more than three questions, and to show the greatest respect for those inside, for this tipi is sacred and the medicine it represents is the holiest of holy. Then she said go to inside now.

Opening the doors covering, I step inside my guides were there sitting around a small fire. Ezekiel motioned for me to come near and he smudged me with sage, and then told me to sit opposite of them and listen. They began chanting and another personage appeared. This person looked like the Buddha, he walked over and sat at what appeared to me to be the head of the circle, in the northern direction, because that location held a very sacred element that was totally foreign to me, yet I knew it must be held sacred and with great respect.

After my guides finished chanting he raised his head, looking directly into my eyes he said, “ask that which you want to know, but realize that my answers are for you to hold within.” First, I asked him about the relationship of the Buddhic plane and those above. Secondly, I asked how Christ relates to the planes and the other ascended masters. The Buddha figure patiently explained and when he was finished I was sitting with Wascar and after a bit returned.

11/15/07

Tonight as I entered and began walking on my path, I noticed Jaguar on my right side accompanying me. Brother lizard sat perched on my right shoulder and sister hawk glided down landing on my left shoulder.

Entering the clearing surrounding the waterfalls pool Ezekiel, Ariel and Marcung were waiting for us. Sach’amama poked her head up from the pools center and slithered over to the edge by us. My guides welcomed us and pointed to a long staircase on the far side of the pool. They told me to go and climb to the top.

Jaguar, Sach’amama, sister hawk, and lizard all came with. We began climbing fast at first then more slowly as we continued up, up, up with no end to the stairs in sight. Eagle appeared from very high up and as she did sister hawk took off to greet her. Together they circled coming lower and lower as they neared, I reached the top of the stairs.

Eagle said, “come” and I jumped into her, becoming one with her essence. Lizard, Jaguar, and Sach’amama all stayed on the top of the staircase. Sister hawk flew wingtip to wingtip with us. We flew across the landscape, rolling hills, meadows, mountains, along the oceans coast, for what seemed like a long time. As we flew I saw images of me learning many things and healing others.

Then the scenery changed, becoming dark and black, like a border of dark emptiness. As we flew through the border it became extremely windy, with huge gusts it was very turbulent and just as I thought eagle might not make it much further we exited to the other side. We flew across the same scenery but this time everything was luminous, vibrating at a much higher frequency. As we flew here more images came to me, I saw pictures of me teaching, healing, helping and the last image before I was again on the platform at the top of the staircase was of my eventual wedding day. This last image brought tears to my eyes, since the picture was of the angel I have dreamed so long for and me.

11/08/07

Tonight’s journey was hard to stay with. I felt very tired and more extended than usual. I entered as usual walking on the moist, cool soil, reaching the waterfall and pool, jumping in and swimming down… On the other side I pulled myself out of the pool walked out of the cavern and over to Wascar, he was sitting by the fire just like every other time.

Today I handed him a leather pouch. He led me to a room that I don’t remember anything about. Suddenly I was in another room that was filled with color everything was multiple hues of blue and green, the light was very clear and like I was inside of a crystal. It was tranquil. Then I was in another room that was dark and laughter filled the air and a voice said that I need to “find” my laughter, simply being in this room made me want to laugh and I burst out laughing, uncontrollably. As I was caught up in my boisterous laughter I suddenly found myself in a wood paneled room. This room was warm and very inviting. In the center there was a full-length mirror standing in a beam of brilliant white light. As I entered the room I could see myself in the mirror. I stood there for what seemed like a long time just looking at myself in the mirror, until Wascar appeared, he smiled and gave me a hug and told me it was time for me to return.

11/01/07

Tonight we took our first guided journey to the upper world. I was walking on the same path, however this time I came to a fork in the path that I don’t remember being there in any of my other journeys. Today the air is much warmer and drier. I followed the fork, which goes down a trail meandering along side of a stream. Coming around a sharp bend the stream and path make, I look up at the rising hillside and notice an overhang with a small opening.

This overhang held my curiosity so I climb up to it and see that the overhang and adjacent rock outcropping conceal an entrance to a cavern. Crouching down, I slip inside. As my eyes adjust to the dim light I notice a man dressed in a brown robe that said he would watch over me if I chose to continue.

In the far end of the cavern/tunnel a bright whitish/violet light begins to radiate. I walked over to the light and felt compelled to step inside, immediately I felt lighter and began to rise. The sensation was similar to that of gliding upward in an elevator. As I realized this comparison, I found myself in a glass elevator that was stopping at the “first world.” This world felt very heavy, covered in craggy, molten rocks and lava. One lava flow running close to the elevator, spoke saying it’s time for rebirth of all that is and ever was.

Suddenly the elevator continued up, stopping again at the “second world.” This world was a dense plant world, resembling a jungle but yet something much more. This place felt much lighter, yet still dense. I did not receive any message from this place only the sense of something special. The next stop at the “third world” was compelling I felt the urge to stay. Many angelic people, grand mothers, grand fathers, those who have gone before, were there to greet and welcome me. Out of the crowd came brother bear who simply said, “remember” and “you must continue.”

The elevator proceeded to the “fourth world” which was an iridescent pale green. As the door opened on this world Pacha-Cuti, a female dressed in a very highly vibrating and radiantly green dress reached out and took my hand. I gave her a gourd water scoop and she smiled and said thank you, “look”. Before me, a very large wall of falling water almost resembling a tsunami appeared. We stood in silence as I gazed into the repetitive churning, rising and falling of the water. After some time, she handed me a staff and told me to journey with it always. Suddenly the elevator appeared and Pacha-Cuti said, “it’s time for you to go.” Getting into the glass elevator I waved goodbye and I woke.

11/01/07

Today I journeyed with the intent of answering three questions: 1) Crystals medicine and their meaning; 2) learning the medicine of my totems; 3) the purpose of the large leather bound book.

It was warmer and daylight on the path today, the sound of the waterfall was much louder and more clear as I approached the pool. Diving into the pool, I swam down fast; the water was cool and welcoming as usual. Coming out on the other side, I walked out of the cavern.

Wascar was sitting by the fire; I greeted him and told him how much I love this place as I gave him a pipe. Reaching up he took the pipe bundle and sat it on his lap. We began talking and he began to slowly and respectfully unwrap the bundle, assembling the bowl to the stem, and then filling the bowl and lighting the contents, he offered me the first smoke. Taking several puffs I wafted the smoke over my head and down my body, and he did the same. Our conversation drifted and silence enveloped us.

After a while I asked him about the rose and white polished football shape crystals. He said that they are to be with me at all times they are my clarity and strength and that they will serve me well throughout this life. Sitting in silence a while longer until Wascar asked me to continue. I resumed by asking him the bear fetish he had recently given me and he said that the bear is my life protector, that it has always been my life totem. It will remain in my life even when other totems come and go. He told me to go within and search it’s meaning.

Next, I asked him about the large leather bound book, as I asked it appeared before me with my other totems, lizard on my right shoulder and sister hawk on my left shoulder. I briefly greeted them and as I did the man with white robes and long black hair appeared. He told me that his name for me is Ezekiel and that he is one of my guides and that through the course of this life he will help me with the book when the timing is right. He said that I must get to know him before entering the pages of the book. After saying this he vanished. I sat awhile longer with Wascar before thanking him for his teachings and returning to the surface.

10/25/07

My entries are now commonplace always proceeding with the familiar:

Standing on my familiar path that leads to my waterfall entry point. It had just rained and my feet were very muddy and cool, it was still warm out, more humid than I remember, probably from the recent rains. The air held the fragrance of renewal. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in, I make larger ripples than are already there. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

As I come to the surface I pause looking at the crystal-lined cavern, I saw several torches lining the cavern and immediately knew that Wascar had placed them there for me, to light my entry. After pulling myself out of the pool I walk to the cave opening and find Wascar in his usual location, sitting by his small campfire. Walking down the short path to the fire I thanked him for the torches. He said, “stop,” you must go cleanse yourself by smudging with the very pure/clear water in a bowel in the cave.

Placing an apple pie down on the path saying this is my gift for you. After smudging with the water, I returned to Wascar, he was eating the apple pie. Looking up he said you must cross this narrow bridge, which just happened to be over a very deep chasm. I said no problem since Jaguar has taken my fears this task does not bother me. After crossing, and immediately upon placing my foot on the other side Wascar was there in front of me waiting, looking a bit peeved that crossing the chasm wasn’t more of a challenge.
Turning, he motioned for me to follow and we walked down a long corridor toward a fire in a chamber at the end of the hall. As we approached the chamber, I noticed that there were shadows singing and dancing. At the chambers entrance, Wascar sat down and motioned for me to go inside.

Stepping into the room a man wearing white robes and long dark hair approached me. He handed me a very large leather bound book and told me to keep it, that it contains my lineage. Then my mother stepped forward from the crowd and told me she loves me and that I am a good son. She then faded back into the crowd and a young “warrior” came forward handing me a pipe, saying use this for ritual and ceremony. An old grandfather came forward next handing me a stick with a ravens skull attached saying, “you will need this medicine.”

After this no others came forward and I knew I should walk across the fire. The coals were warm and inviting but didn’t burn or hurt my feet as I walked across. On the other side of the fire I saw a golden goblet with encrusted rubies sitting in the center of a mesa. The chalice contained a dark green substance that I knew I should drink. The fluid was cool and somewhat bitter as I swallowed it. After I swallowed the last drop I respectfully placed the goblet back in the center of the mesa, and walked back across the fire. I paused momentarily taking in the essence of the ceremony in the room, then stepped back into the corridor to the waiting Wascar. We walked in silence back to his fire and the cavern entrance…