04/14/08

Lying back in a field of tall grass I gaze up at the intensity of the pure blue sky, I can hear the beautiful birdsong, and feel a gentle breeze gently caress my body as I lay there. Suddenly I notice millions of small whitish translucent particles jet across the sky. Staring even more intently at the mesmerizing show before me, I suddenly find myself in a mobile home in the mountains. I am surrounded by friends in this small abode; everyone is enjoying the sense of accomplishment and family. My phone begins vibrating and not wanting to interrupt the mood, I push the silence button. Immediately it begins to vibrate again, so I repeat the process. Once again my phone begins vibrating, this time I attempt to discreetly pull my phone out to see who is being so persistent. The caller ID screen is repeating “unavailable and out of area.” Lifting the screen just enough to hang up, I place the phone back into my pocket. Immediately the caller attempts again, this time I excuse myself and step outside into the fresh, crisp and welcoming night time air. Answering the phone I say “why do you keep bothering me” before the caller has any chance of saying a word. After a momentary silence my (dead) mom says hi Robert, I’ve been trying to get your attention and nothing else has worked. Stunned I say “momma, I really miss you” she says yes I know, but now I am not sick anymore. I tell her that I know and that I am happy for that. She says, you have my permission to stop and do whatever it takes to heal, you have a lot of work to complete and it’s time begin. Bobbie, I love you.” With that the line went dead leaving a dial tone in the silence of the night. Standing there alone I cried wanting to be held by my future love ever so tightly…