12/06/07

I’m walking slowly on my familiar path, it’s very dry today and the ground is hard under my feet. The scent of guava and jasmine permeate the air. Today, as I have become accustomed to, my staff is slung over my back. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in Sach’amama swam up to me, coiling herself around me, I became on with her.

We swam down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side, and climbed/slithered out and over to Wascar. Noticing us he smiled and began to laugh, saying to me “looks like now you’ve really gone and done it.” His laughter continued, getting so hard that I could see he has several missing teeth, which I had never noticed before.

After his laughter settled, I coiled around him and he walked off and into a cavern. Once inside, he held up a long branch and I slithered up to the top. Eagle came once again and began circling, around and around, screeching over and over and over. Finally I could make out that she was saying, “see how easy this is, why don’t you just do it.” “You have all that you need.” As soon as she said this I found myself back on the path with the waterfall behind me… For me, I believe this represents a tenant of don’t focus just accept. Or From acceptance comes understanding…

11/29/07

I’m walking on my familiar path, Jaguar is once again by my right side. Today I have my staff slung over my back. My feet are slightly muddy the texture and coolness were welcome. The air again held the fragrance of renewal. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in the water felt much cooler than normal. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

I climb out of the pool on the other side and slowly walk out of the torch lit cavern to find Wascar in his usual place sitting by the fire, today it’s twilight out, that magical time between day and night for me… Wascar greets me, and motions for me to sit with him. As is our custom we sit in silence. While we are sitting sister hawk and brother lizard join us.

Not long after they arrive everything dissolves falling away except for our fire circle and the log we are sitting on. We are floating in space, surrounded by galaxies and stars. Some feel strangely familiar by sensation alone and others do not. Then Wascar spoke, saying, “continue expanding your vision,” “there is so much more to see.” Then we sat in silence again it was cold and quiet more silence that I can ever remember experiencing.

When Wascar spoke again he simply said, “see”… Instantly we were back to a place that looked similar to Wascar’s camp, however it was now day and early spring with new leaves budding and sprouting on the surrounding trees. Off to our left was a large tipi and Wascar told me to go inside. I got up and started to walk toward the tipi and heard a rustling coming from the aspen trees in back of the tipi. I stopped and saw a brilliantly white Grandmother Buffalo grazing in the grove. She raised her head and said that when I enter the tipi I should ask no more than three questions, and to show the greatest respect for those inside, for this tipi is sacred and the medicine it represents is the holiest of holy. Then she said go to inside now.

Opening the doors covering, I step inside my guides were there sitting around a small fire. Ezekiel motioned for me to come near and he smudged me with sage, and then told me to sit opposite of them and listen. They began chanting and another personage appeared. This person looked like the Buddha, he walked over and sat at what appeared to me to be the head of the circle, in the northern direction, because that location held a very sacred element that was totally foreign to me, yet I knew it must be held sacred and with great respect.

After my guides finished chanting he raised his head, looking directly into my eyes he said, “ask that which you want to know, but realize that my answers are for you to hold within.” First, I asked him about the relationship of the Buddhic plane and those above. Secondly, I asked how Christ relates to the planes and the other ascended masters. The Buddha figure patiently explained and when he was finished I was sitting with Wascar and after a bit returned.

11/15/07

Tonight as I entered and began walking on my path, I noticed Jaguar on my right side accompanying me. Brother lizard sat perched on my right shoulder and sister hawk glided down landing on my left shoulder.

Entering the clearing surrounding the waterfalls pool Ezekiel, Ariel and Marcung were waiting for us. Sach’amama poked her head up from the pools center and slithered over to the edge by us. My guides welcomed us and pointed to a long staircase on the far side of the pool. They told me to go and climb to the top.

Jaguar, Sach’amama, sister hawk, and lizard all came with. We began climbing fast at first then more slowly as we continued up, up, up with no end to the stairs in sight. Eagle appeared from very high up and as she did sister hawk took off to greet her. Together they circled coming lower and lower as they neared, I reached the top of the stairs.

Eagle said, “come” and I jumped into her, becoming one with her essence. Lizard, Jaguar, and Sach’amama all stayed on the top of the staircase. Sister hawk flew wingtip to wingtip with us. We flew across the landscape, rolling hills, meadows, mountains, along the oceans coast, for what seemed like a long time. As we flew I saw images of me learning many things and healing others.

Then the scenery changed, becoming dark and black, like a border of dark emptiness. As we flew through the border it became extremely windy, with huge gusts it was very turbulent and just as I thought eagle might not make it much further we exited to the other side. We flew across the same scenery but this time everything was luminous, vibrating at a much higher frequency. As we flew here more images came to me, I saw pictures of me teaching, healing, helping and the last image before I was again on the platform at the top of the staircase was of my eventual wedding day. This last image brought tears to my eyes, since the picture was of the angel I have dreamed so long for and me.

11/08/07

Tonight’s journey was hard to stay with. I felt very tired and more extended than usual. I entered as usual walking on the moist, cool soil, reaching the waterfall and pool, jumping in and swimming down… On the other side I pulled myself out of the pool walked out of the cavern and over to Wascar, he was sitting by the fire just like every other time.

Today I handed him a leather pouch. He led me to a room that I don’t remember anything about. Suddenly I was in another room that was filled with color everything was multiple hues of blue and green, the light was very clear and like I was inside of a crystal. It was tranquil. Then I was in another room that was dark and laughter filled the air and a voice said that I need to “find” my laughter, simply being in this room made me want to laugh and I burst out laughing, uncontrollably. As I was caught up in my boisterous laughter I suddenly found myself in a wood paneled room. This room was warm and very inviting. In the center there was a full-length mirror standing in a beam of brilliant white light. As I entered the room I could see myself in the mirror. I stood there for what seemed like a long time just looking at myself in the mirror, until Wascar appeared, he smiled and gave me a hug and told me it was time for me to return.

11/01/07

Tonight we took our first guided journey to the upper world. I was walking on the same path, however this time I came to a fork in the path that I don’t remember being there in any of my other journeys. Today the air is much warmer and drier. I followed the fork, which goes down a trail meandering along side of a stream. Coming around a sharp bend the stream and path make, I look up at the rising hillside and notice an overhang with a small opening.

This overhang held my curiosity so I climb up to it and see that the overhang and adjacent rock outcropping conceal an entrance to a cavern. Crouching down, I slip inside. As my eyes adjust to the dim light I notice a man dressed in a brown robe that said he would watch over me if I chose to continue.

In the far end of the cavern/tunnel a bright whitish/violet light begins to radiate. I walked over to the light and felt compelled to step inside, immediately I felt lighter and began to rise. The sensation was similar to that of gliding upward in an elevator. As I realized this comparison, I found myself in a glass elevator that was stopping at the “first world.” This world felt very heavy, covered in craggy, molten rocks and lava. One lava flow running close to the elevator, spoke saying it’s time for rebirth of all that is and ever was.

Suddenly the elevator continued up, stopping again at the “second world.” This world was a dense plant world, resembling a jungle but yet something much more. This place felt much lighter, yet still dense. I did not receive any message from this place only the sense of something special. The next stop at the “third world” was compelling I felt the urge to stay. Many angelic people, grand mothers, grand fathers, those who have gone before, were there to greet and welcome me. Out of the crowd came brother bear who simply said, “remember” and “you must continue.”

The elevator proceeded to the “fourth world” which was an iridescent pale green. As the door opened on this world Pacha-Cuti, a female dressed in a very highly vibrating and radiantly green dress reached out and took my hand. I gave her a gourd water scoop and she smiled and said thank you, “look”. Before me, a very large wall of falling water almost resembling a tsunami appeared. We stood in silence as I gazed into the repetitive churning, rising and falling of the water. After some time, she handed me a staff and told me to journey with it always. Suddenly the elevator appeared and Pacha-Cuti said, “it’s time for you to go.” Getting into the glass elevator I waved goodbye and I woke.

11/01/07

Today I journeyed with the intent of answering three questions: 1) Crystals medicine and their meaning; 2) learning the medicine of my totems; 3) the purpose of the large leather bound book.

It was warmer and daylight on the path today, the sound of the waterfall was much louder and more clear as I approached the pool. Diving into the pool, I swam down fast; the water was cool and welcoming as usual. Coming out on the other side, I walked out of the cavern.

Wascar was sitting by the fire; I greeted him and told him how much I love this place as I gave him a pipe. Reaching up he took the pipe bundle and sat it on his lap. We began talking and he began to slowly and respectfully unwrap the bundle, assembling the bowl to the stem, and then filling the bowl and lighting the contents, he offered me the first smoke. Taking several puffs I wafted the smoke over my head and down my body, and he did the same. Our conversation drifted and silence enveloped us.

After a while I asked him about the rose and white polished football shape crystals. He said that they are to be with me at all times they are my clarity and strength and that they will serve me well throughout this life. Sitting in silence a while longer until Wascar asked me to continue. I resumed by asking him the bear fetish he had recently given me and he said that the bear is my life protector, that it has always been my life totem. It will remain in my life even when other totems come and go. He told me to go within and search it’s meaning.

Next, I asked him about the large leather bound book, as I asked it appeared before me with my other totems, lizard on my right shoulder and sister hawk on my left shoulder. I briefly greeted them and as I did the man with white robes and long black hair appeared. He told me that his name for me is Ezekiel and that he is one of my guides and that through the course of this life he will help me with the book when the timing is right. He said that I must get to know him before entering the pages of the book. After saying this he vanished. I sat awhile longer with Wascar before thanking him for his teachings and returning to the surface.

10/25/07

My entries are now commonplace always proceeding with the familiar:

Standing on my familiar path that leads to my waterfall entry point. It had just rained and my feet were very muddy and cool, it was still warm out, more humid than I remember, probably from the recent rains. The air held the fragrance of renewal. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in, I make larger ripples than are already there. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side.

As I come to the surface I pause looking at the crystal-lined cavern, I saw several torches lining the cavern and immediately knew that Wascar had placed them there for me, to light my entry. After pulling myself out of the pool I walk to the cave opening and find Wascar in his usual location, sitting by his small campfire. Walking down the short path to the fire I thanked him for the torches. He said, “stop,” you must go cleanse yourself by smudging with the very pure/clear water in a bowel in the cave.

Placing an apple pie down on the path saying this is my gift for you. After smudging with the water, I returned to Wascar, he was eating the apple pie. Looking up he said you must cross this narrow bridge, which just happened to be over a very deep chasm. I said no problem since Jaguar has taken my fears this task does not bother me. After crossing, and immediately upon placing my foot on the other side Wascar was there in front of me waiting, looking a bit peeved that crossing the chasm wasn’t more of a challenge.
Turning, he motioned for me to follow and we walked down a long corridor toward a fire in a chamber at the end of the hall. As we approached the chamber, I noticed that there were shadows singing and dancing. At the chambers entrance, Wascar sat down and motioned for me to go inside.

Stepping into the room a man wearing white robes and long dark hair approached me. He handed me a very large leather bound book and told me to keep it, that it contains my lineage. Then my mother stepped forward from the crowd and told me she loves me and that I am a good son. She then faded back into the crowd and a young “warrior” came forward handing me a pipe, saying use this for ritual and ceremony. An old grandfather came forward next handing me a stick with a ravens skull attached saying, “you will need this medicine.”

After this no others came forward and I knew I should walk across the fire. The coals were warm and inviting but didn’t burn or hurt my feet as I walked across. On the other side of the fire I saw a golden goblet with encrusted rubies sitting in the center of a mesa. The chalice contained a dark green substance that I knew I should drink. The fluid was cool and somewhat bitter as I swallowed it. After I swallowed the last drop I respectfully placed the goblet back in the center of the mesa, and walked back across the fire. I paused momentarily taking in the essence of the ceremony in the room, then stepped back into the corridor to the waiting Wascar. We walked in silence back to his fire and the cavern entrance…

10/18/07

I was once again standing on my familiar path that leads to my waterfall entry point. It was warm, humid, the soil cool and moist. The air held the fragrance of over ripe strawberry guava and jasmine. I walked along this path to the small clearing where my waterfall and entry pool await. Jumping in, I make larger ripples than are already there. Taking a breath I flip over swimming down, down, down, head first through the narrow opening and on into the pool on the other side. As I come to the surface I pause looking at the crystal lined cavern. After pulling myself out of the pool I walk to the cave opening and find Wascar in his usual location, sitting by his small campfire.

This evening, he greets me with a warm “Aho” as I walk over and give him a Kukui nut lei. Without saying a word, he motions for me to sit. We converse in silence for what seemed like a long time, until he raises his head, saying “go through the gate.” I look up from the fire and see a fence with a willow gate and an arbor like trellis, which was made of willow too, which had not been there before. The fence and gate are on the far edge of Wascar’s camp.

Getting up, I walked over to the gate and opened it. As soon as I opened it a beam of light cam down from the sky illuminating a large boulder that was just through the gate. A lizard was sitting on top of the rock. I walked over and asked him if he has anything to teach me and he replied, saying, I will teach you about change. I asked him if he wanted to go with me and he said yes so I placed him in my shirt pocket. I continued walking down the path leading from the gate. As I was walking a hawk began circling high overhead, spiraling down, down, down until eventually she landed on my outstretched arm. She said she is here to teach me about “clarity of vision.” With that she climbed onto my shoulder and said I am coming with you, continue your journey.

Resuming my trek, I noticed the path now meandered through some thin groves of trees that reached out into the meadow just before the edge of a very dense forest. As we reached the first grove of trees, we heard rustling and, suddenly a very large, and old white buffalo appeared speaking from inside one of the thin bunches of trees. In her firm and regal voice she said “my son I am here to teach you about the future, but not quite yet. When the time is right I will be at your side for the remainder of your journey. You must go back and begin remembering all that you already know.” Immediately I turned around, hurrying back to Wascar’s camp.

When we reached the fire he gave me a brilliant blue and green bear totem amulet with a vibrant red heart line running through the center of the bears side. I thanked Wascar for the gift and walked into the cave with brother lizard, sister hawk, and the bear amulet.

10/04/07

I came in walking on my now familiar path in the musky sweet smell of late evening. Darkness surrounded me as I walked this moonless night. Instinctively I felt another presence and knew that it was time to meet Otorongo; mother, sister Jaguar. I did not stop or pause as I walked on the path until I could hear the friendly sound of the waterfalls thunderous roar. Then Jaguar leapt in front of me showing her large bright yellow eyes. She stood there silently blocking my way and before I knew what to do next we merged Otorongo and I became one with me sort of stepping inside the abdomen of her essence.

She began walking and instead of jumping into the pool at the base of the waterfall she simply leapt into the air and we were walking out of the cave and right past Wascar. This time I remember his facial details. He is very old, his face tanned and weathered from spending all of his time in the elements. His smile contains wisdom and unlimited compassionate kindness. His hair is very long, an ashen gray, woven into one long braid. About half way down the braid there is one eagle feather. His eyes are radiant glowing a cobalt steel blue.

Swiftly Jaguar and I traveled for what seemed like a very long time covering a large distance. She stopped as we came upon a cavern, and she told me to leave my fears here that “I simply wasn’t allowed to have them” anymore, that I must place them in the bowel. Per her instruction I reached inside myself and took out a dark mass and placed it into a coconut shell bowl that was lying on the floor. As soon as place my fears in the bowel we separated. She gave me a rose colored stone and was gone.

In her place Wascar appeared, he handed me a broken piece of mirror and in return I handed him two whitish translucent crystals. He thanked me for the stones and said remember acceptance and letting go, “you are not the one in control”. After he spoke his words we were back by his fire and hearing the call back returned to the cave, jumping into the water and returning to the surface.

09/27/07

My entry was identical to last week’s entry, except this time as I swam down, into the pool I noticed that the walls form the shape of an hourglass. As I came out of the cave Wascar was there and I handed him an orange. This time he was hunkered down over the fire, noticing my presence, he turned to face me but I don’t recall any facial features.

I handed him an orange and he said “see” and a hallway leading to a room appeared. The walls of the hall and room are lined with embedded crystals that radiated with their own luminescence. I walked down the hallway and entered the room. Entering the room, Sach’amama appeared hanging down from the ceiling. For a moment she stared into my eyes then said, “It’s time for growth” and instantly swallowed me whole.

The instant she swallowed me a warm and comforting darkness enveloped me. As soon as I realized what had just happened, the darkness vanished and I was in a candle lit room with a very old large, wooden table that was full of wooden toy soldiers. One toy soldier riding a horse moved to the front and the horse reared up on its hind legs. I noticed that the riders’ head was missing. I asked the soldier for permission to hold it and he replied that I should take him. As I picked him up a pair of running shoes appeared and the rider told me to take them too.

Standing there in this room holding the toy soldier and the shoes, I realized that I was back in the crystal-lined room. This time the crystals were glimmering and radiating even more vibrantly. I remember thinking that Sach’amama did not scare me at all, with that thought I turned and walked back down the hall to Wascar.

Without looking up at me he said, “the toy and shoes are our gift to you” and “it’s about time we’ve been waiting, what took you so long.” Looking down into a bag by his side he pulled out a wooden carved bowel and said this is for you. With the shoes, toy and bowel in hand, I went into the cave jumped into the pool and once again swam upward and came out at the waterfall and slowly walked back down the path.